The one who change me

i was too wild back then. i’m out of the track. i don’t even know myself. to me it’s easy. enjoy while i’m still young. don’t bother what people wanna say about me. just live my own life. but then, i met someone who help me change my perception. that Allah is there. im trying so hard to change myself. first it was so hard for me to do that. i told her that i cant do all this i dont know how to solat how to repent how to take wudhu. im zero. nothing. give up. she taught me patiently, step by step. then she told me “Allah never give up in giving you life sayang. He loves you. He just want you to obey Him. i know you can do. just put some effort on doing it dear.” im changing. people start giving me one kind of look. i told her and i cry to her. “kak, everyone’s hate me kak. they look at me like i’m some dirt on their shoes kak. i can stay no more kak. what should i do?” “dont cry to me but cry to Him. He loves you and He’s testing you. He test your sabar He test your iman and He test your trust sayang. keep ask Him. don’t ask me. i don’t have the answer to your question. i can only guide you back on track.” she told me she’s getting married. im so happy for her. so i let her settle her things up. a month after, im texting her just want her to know that i can adapt with all this and i love doing it. she didnt reply any. 1 month. 2 month. 3 month. she’s gone. i dont know where she’s going. she never scold me, never hate me, never raise her voice. never. ever. she’s the most kindest person that i ever met! i just miss her so much. i miss her voice. i miss she call me sayang. i miss when she call me adik. i miss she call my anak syurga one day. i just miss her!!! kak, wherever you are. please take care of yourself. i just miss you kak. miss all the moment that you left to me kak. you’re right. key of success is sabar, redha and tabah. thank you for guide me kak though im still not like what you ask me to be kak.